Kate's Story

I wanted to add some information about myself, as I continue my journey to discover Kate. Along the way I have been doing a LOT of reading, and thus have realized that this road I travel is a normal road of a woman who is no longer young. Having said that, I now also realize that this is a GOOD thing! Who knew? lol Some of the information I do wish I had read about 4 years earlier...perhaps it would have made this journey less rough. However, that said, how else do we learn but by doing the living? Hindsight is ever so clear. Would that we be given a bit of it first? I guess that is like wishing in one hand isnt it? *wink* Figure out the rest of that by yourself. I feel like the Little Engine that DID now days. I feel like I am at last on the right path and that the future will be nothing but good. And, if I happen to be wrong in that, and there are other "rocks" in my road, that I will be able to face them and move them ever so gently out of my way. I still dont know where I am going exactly, only that I am moving forward instead of sitting in one place any longer like I have been doing for the past few.....months, days and years. Sometimes to move forward, one has to journey back...and explore the present..and that, dear Friends, is what I have been doing. I really hate to think that I have wasted the past few years doing so.... depression stinks... Let me give you some advice....if you find yourself in a Depression, fight it! I knew I was there, but let it overcome me for a time. I let self pity almost get the better of me....I am fighting that tooth and nail now. Get moving to help yourself...literally. Get outside and walk, workout, go to the mall and walk, do something to end the feelings of Depression. Take Control, I finally did. That is not the easiest thing to do with the state of the world, but exercise and eating right are helping tremendously. All I wanted to say is that I like where I am now. Oh, there are things I wish were different, thats true of any person at any given age. Just try not to get bogged down in the Shoulda Coulda Wouldas and move on to embracing the good things you have. We all have so many, even those without shoes can find a good thing if they try long enough and hard enough. With bare feet you can feel the soft cool grass! See? I found one right away! Find 5 things to smile about, they really are there! Write them down, even if they are the same ones every day...and no matter how minor or trivial they are, you can find them. Hope your day is all that you wish it to be, and that your nights are even better! Give yourself a huge Hug too, because you are the person who matters most~! Katie